A year ago, I was in the hospital, hooked up to an IV that was supplying pitocin (or something like that) to cause contractions to bring on labor. Just like with J's induction, the pitocin made me extremely nauseous so phenergan was added to the IV. The phenergan left me in a sleepy state between here and there, but I wasn't nauseous any more. Mr. K was in the room, and I wasn't sure if he was going to stay for the whole thing or not (he did). I told him this time I wasn't afraid, so he could leave me and go to work if he needed to. Mr. K and I watched stupid shows on TV. Early on we saw a home and garden show. Then we saw at least one episode of Walker, Texas Ranger. I think we saw at least two episodes, but I was pretty out of it from the phenergan. I think Matlock was on. Around 10:35, I had my first "real" contraction. I remember making the comment that if I had felt that at home, I would have begun timing them immediately. It was obvious that it was a real contraction. At some point, I asked for painkiller to be added to the IV. My doctor just wanted to start the epidural, but first she was going to break my water. I grumbled a bit, because with N and J she had broken my water, and it hurt A LOT both times. She said it was unusual, but there was no reason she couldn't break the water after I had the epidural.
The anesthesiologist came in to do the epidural. In all other deliveries I've done they had made Mr. K leave the room. He was so happy watching TV that she left him in the room. I yelled a lot as she did it. She had to do it twice because I guess I moved too much the first time, and she wasn't sure it was in correctly. It hurt so much going in, and there was the horrid, POP, POP, POP as it went up my vertebrae. I swore to myself as she did it, I would NEVER have another epidural. I already knew I was done having children, so I figured that would be a pretty easy promise to keep to myself.
Well, the epidural only numbed my right side, so the doctor had my lie on my left side in hopes the medicine would drain to the right side. As I was lying on my side, I felt myself get all wet. I called the nurse and told her I had either peed all over or my water broke. She came and concluded my water had broken. It hadn't hurt a bit this time!
My left side still hadn't numbed, and the contractions were getting bad. I wanted painkillers in my IV, but the doctor decided to add them to the epidural instead. At least twice, I had a catheter inserted to empty my bladder (it fills fast with the IV in use). I shrieked with pain each time. It hurt so much, even with the epidural, and the contractions were getting so much worse.
My doctor came in and concluded the easiest way to end the pain would be to deliver the baby, so she wanted to begin having me push with the contractions. I asked if I could watch. I hadn't seen a baby delivered before, and I knew this was my last chance. The nurse got a mirror on a stand out of the closet.
It was fascinating, although extremely painful (and that was with an epidural). K's head would try to come out but then suck back in. This happened a few times. The doctor said she was going to do an episiotomy (can't spell it), and she suggested I close my eyes just for the snip. I did, but I don't think it was necessary. I was numb enough that I didn't even feel it, but boy, did the contractions hurt. Finally, enough of K's head came out so the doctor could just twist her a bit, and the shoulders and the rest just slid out abruptly. She delivered the placenta, and I think I got to cut the umbilical cord. I know I did with J, but my memory is still fuzzy about that with K. I know Mr. K was given the opportunity, but he turned it down, as he did with J. I know I wanted to, so I'm sure I did, but I just can't remember the act as I did with J. I remember being so surprised how sharp the scissors were, and how easily they cut the cord.
I watched the doctor stitch me up. I didn't feel a thing. If I had, it would have been too hard to watch. Before she began, I remember she made a comment to the effect of, she does a great job of stitching if she says so herself. She began with a torn, bloody mess, and when she was done, it was a clean, tidy row of stitches that didn't look the least bit scary.
When K was cleaned up enough to wrap and hand to me, I was stunned at the recognition I felt, which I didn't feel with N or J. It was as though I knew her. She looked like a plumped up version of N. She was immediately mine, and I knew her.
I spent most of my waking time at the hospital talking to K, looking at the menu, and eating. The rest of the story isn't important (how well I was treated by the nurses, the nursing students I allowed to bathe K the first night, etc.).
I've finally written down the important part of K's arrival. I thank God every day for giving me such a great family. K is the icing on a fantastic cake. It's taken me a year to feel up to writing this story, but now I finally have.
Happy birthday Kate!